Now brothers and sisters, before I go one sentence further, let me tell you I am not a great example to talk about this subject. I have, however, learned many truths, as I have used myself as a destructive punching bag on endless, previous life episodes!
My 45+ surgeries, bouts with addictions, depression, and withholding from my family, added to the life lessons I had to learn to write this article, hopefully, to reinforce those lessons and help you all in your journey.
I know for a fact, there are many reasons for the feeling of need to be so self-critical and self-destructive. But I have found one of the biggest reasons in my life has been the persistent feeling of a word called guilt!
A person can have two types of guilt, one coming from the Holy Spirit, which we need, but the other coming from the devil himself, which we don’t!
God’s guilt helps us realize the truths in our lives and leads us to repentance and a return to forgiveness in our lives. Once we respond to this love of God, the guilt is gone and replaced by God’s peace and joy!
However, the double guilt is the guilt of Satan and his lies, deception, and self-contempt, fueled by the father of all deceit and trickery. This was my type of guilt; is it yours?
Feelings of self-defeating guilt come from the devils’ whispers, saying you don’t believe you measure up to your high standards, or because you did something the devil whispers, you shouldn’t have done. It’s a feeling of shame or regret because of bad perceived conduct or failure, and we keep ourselves in that state of guilt because we need to pay for what we did or did not do.
Psalm 38– 4/6 describes what evil guilt can produce in your mind, how it can destroy a spirit and feel the devil’s lies. David says, “my guilt has overwhelmed me like a burden too heavy to bare,
my wounds fester and are loathsome because of my sinful folly. I am bowed down and brought very low, and all day long I go about in mourning”.
Sometimes we need to ease up on this chronic self-contempt and body punching and maybe accept the truth that some of the things we do in our lives, we were doing what we had to do? It was the best. Honestly, we could do in that season of life. We were plain doing the best we could do!
Instead, our feelings are driven by guilt and the thoughts the devil plants in our spirits and minds.
If I believe the devil’s lies, guilt will eat me away. Jesus said the devil is a liar and the father of all lies.
Beating ourselves with guilt is self-destructive and abusive. It hurts our relationships with God, our family, and ourselves. Satan does not want us to experience God’s truth, love, forgiveness, grace, and peace. Instead, he wants us under the weight of self-condemnation 24/7.
Let us live in our hearts God’s words in first Peter 5:7 it says, “give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you!”
This is the greatest truth. God loves you with love never-ending!